I just couldn’t do it.
I was taking MATH61 and ECON11 during the summer session, thought I would just “bang those out” and make my summer “productive”, and I couldn’t do it.
I found the pace of the summer session impossible for a class like MATH61. I was dedicating every waking hour to the material, but there was so much of it that I barely had time to finish the homework from the last lecture (and take the corresponding quiz) before the next lecture revealed even more new principles and the next batch of homework. Forget understanding it all.
In addition to fitting 10 weeks of material into 6 weeks, there are far less opportunities to get tutoring on anything you don’t understand or even just the time to absorb the info. The TA and professor were very willing to help, but there was hardly any time to work on things you needed to practice.
But I’d thought maybe I could pull it off. I took the midterm, and it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. After I got my score back, I realized that I’d thought that only because I didn’t grasp the complexity of many of the questions.
Anyway, you see where I’m going with this. I failed the midterm. The median was only a 62%, but still I was more than a third below that. The professor has a grading scheme where he’ll throw out the midterm grade if you kill it on the final, but I just didn’t feel like I could pull it off. I’d needed to look at the book solutions too many times. I really did not have a handle on the material.
So, I decided to drop the class. It was an expensive decision, as I get no refund on my summer session fee for the class, but It was that or possibly have a D or something in there.
I’m going to keep going to lecture and discussion, so it won’t be a total loss, but I’m really, really, really disappointed that I couldn’t do it. It made me tear up to drop the class.
I took the ECON11 midterm in the midst of all that and, of course, didn’t study thoroughly enough for it because of the time I was putting into the math class. So, naturally, I made a lot of mistakes that shouldn’t have happened (and it’s 2:45am and I can’t sleep right now, thinking about them). I don’t have that exam back yet, but I’m sure it will be a grade or two lower than it should have been.
The difference with this class, though, is that the material is easy for me to ramp up on, so I feel I can make up for the midterm score with a high final score.
I hated dropping that math class, but I got in the ring with that beast and it beat me; it just knocked me out.