OMFG. My summer can now begin.
I don’t know that I’ll ever take a summer class again.
Yeah, I want to blame the “10 weeks of work shoved into 6 week” schedule for my newly-minted “B-” in ECON 11, but the truth is that there’s a far more disturbing fact.
I felt completely prepared for that final. I felt fine while I was taking it. I felt confident during the week I waited for the results. But, I got a “C” on the final. A “C”. What? How could my feelings about the exam and my result be in such opposition?
I have felt like this before. I have taken exams before and experienced this disconnect between the “feel” for my performance and the actual result. I can think of 4 such experiences. 1 was a CS exam, 2 were math, and this one.
That’s what really disturbs me, that I’m somehow unaware that I’m fucking up while it’s happening. I have an appointment to see the exam to discover where I went off the rails, but Christ, I don’t want to be blissfully unaware that I’m wrongly answering questions during exams. That just sounds bizarre.
Oh, and I’ve felt really very confident about Econ classes in general so far at UCLA. I already had an “A-” and an “A+” in my previous Econ classes, so I also feel a bit indignant (aka “ashamed for my ego”) that I pulled a grade like a “B-” in a class that’s NOT computer science or level 4 calculus.
I’ll report back to you my very important findings regarding my mistakes on that final.